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Personal Bibliography

August 3, 2009

In this program, we have to pick a “personal bibliography”: twenty books we plan to read in a few months that will either inform our writerly existences or directly influence the manuscript upon which we are working. The following is a rough draft of my personal bibliography, just for kicks:

D’Aulaires’ Book of Greek Myths

Beloved childhood classic, and one of the best customer reviewed books on Amazon I’ve ever seen. If you are even a little educated in these classic plot lines, you will realize how much Western culture descended directly from them.

The Denial of Death by Ernest Becker

The Pulitzer Prize winning effort by Ernest Becker to evaluate all human behavior in light of fear of death.

Her Husband by Diane Middlebrook

I’m reading this now, in my breaks from Infinite Jest; story of Ted Hughes and Sylvia Plath’s marriage.

Brief Interviews with Hideous Men

DFW!

Appetites by Caroline Knapp

What I’m up against, I think.

A Writer’s Life by Gay Talese

Self-explanatory.

Theory and Practice of Group Psychotherapy by Irving Yalom

Part of my manuscript deals with the potentially negative effects of group therapy, and so I’m going back to one of the pioneers of the practice, Irving Yalom.  He wrote quite a few seminal books on therapy but this one feels most relevant.

Girl, Interrupted by Susannah Kaysen

This will be a re-read.  It relates to my MS as well.  I don’t want to give too much away, otherwise you won’t buy it on Kindle!

Can Somebody Shout Amen!: Inside the Tents and Tabernacles of American Revivalists by Patsy Sims

Patsy Sims runs the program here, and she’s the sweetest little old Southern woman who, in her youth, infiltrated such potentially hostile, male-oriented spheres as prison, the Klu Klux Klan and snake handler’s churches.  I myself have a fetish for communities on the fringes of society (I’ve expressed this before, I’m sure, a million times) and am really interested in how these groups operate.  She’s given me driving directions to a snake handler’s church, which ought to be pretty interesting, when I’m ready…

Diary of a Genius by Salvador Dali

Anyone who has the balls to title his book so deserves to be worshiped.  (I jest.  Infinitely.)

The Next American Essay edited by John D’Agata

I met John D’Agata in California last year…he’s considered one of the pioneers of the “lyric essay”, and this volume (apparently, I obviously haven’t read it) attempts to showcase some of the new, inventive forms of the essay.

Faces in the Water by Janet Frame

Frame is one of New Zealand’s most famed writers.  This is a fictionalized account of her eight year on-and-off stay in a mental hospital for schizophrenia, a diagnosis that was later reneged.  Like Kaysen, she’s interested in the lines we’ve drawn that demarcate “crazy” from “sane”, and how it was that she came to be in the first group for a time.  Her Autobiography, which I have read, is superb, as is Jane Campion’s film version, An Angel at my Table.

Peeling the Onion by Gunter Grass

The formidable German writer examines his past and the fallibility of memory.

Autobiography of a Face by Lucy Grealey

I’ve always wanted to read this.  I’ve heard it’s just stunning, and it works because I’m trying to study the way people construct the narratives of their lives.

Play of Consciousness by Swami Muktananda

This is the “spiritual autobiography” of the guru of the guru I occasionally visit when I’m “home” in order to chant and calm the eff down. I’ve heard parts of it read aloud at “services”, and am curious to hear more of it, and to learn more about the teachings of “Baba”, as he’s called.

Architect of Desire by Suzannah Lessard

This is the memoir of a former mentor of mine, a fiercely smart writer with a history at the New Yorker and an eye sharper than a scalpel.  The book is about her grandfather, famed New York City architect Stanford White, and his many dalliances, bad habits, and eventual demise.

Regarding the Pain of Others by Susan Sontag

I haven’t read a lot of Sontag, and I really want to.  There was something else of hers I wanted to read, but I forgot which…this seemed thematically appropriate, as I’m also interested in catharsis via observation…Aristotelian tragedy, I guess.  I have to work on unpacking this subject, and building up my vocabulary/knowledge of it.  I once read that Susan Sontag directed a production of Waiting for Godot in a ruined church during the War in Bosnia, and the concept of this has been lodged in my brain ever since.

The Hotel New Hampshire by John Irving

The New York Times Book Review calls it a “hectic, gaudy saga.”  Kickass.

The Story of O by Pauline Reage

French erotica.  Done.

Strangeland by Tracy Emin

The “autobiography” (diaries?) of a visual artist.  I don’t know too much about this one.  I found it on an old reading list I made while living in Paris.  I’m not entirely sold on this choice…

Things I’m Thinking About Instead of the Lecture

July 31, 2009

1. The fact that my copy of Infinite Jest, which I had overnighted to me (via FedEx) from my house, is stuck somewhere in a FedEx warehouse in Baltimore because, the website claims, of “incorrect address” (no!) and I am terrified it will get lost somewhere in the warehouse or in transit and I will have to mourn my copy.

“Why don’t you just get another one?”

“Because that one is MINE.  It’s where I put the orchid petal to dry it.  It’s where my notes are.  It has a life, and if one of your children gets lost, you don’t just buy another one.”

2. David Foster Wallace is quickly gaining iconic, and beloved (important differentiation) status in my mind, and this is…scary?

3. On August 31st, in the HBO documentary series:
Youth Knows No Pain: Follows filmmaker Mitch McCabe, the age-obsessed daughter of a plastic surgeon, as she journeys through America’s $60 billion a year anti-aging world.  In this “Alice in Wonderland” tale, McCabe spends two years traveling across the country visiting doctors and experts, living with a cross-section of characters from Minnesota to Texas who have gone to varying lengths to “beat the clock.”

4. Ted Hughes, and Sylvia Plath, specifically in light of:

“Their heads fell apart into sleep like the two halves
Of a lopped melon, but love is hard to stop

In their entwined sleep they exchanged arms and legs
In their dreams their brains took each other hostage

In the morning they wore each other’s face” (Hughes)

And Assia Wevill, of course.

5. The fact that when I went to the grocery store last night, I wanted to buy an avocado, and noticed that all the rock hard avocados had stickers on them that said, “RIPE NOW,” which is a fucking LIE!  I can tell you’re not ripe, and just because you wear a little button saying you ARE doesn’t mean I’m going to be fooled into believing you.  Asshole.

6. Shoes

7. I’ve never listened to This American Life and I feel super inadequate for this reason.  I always plan to and it always gets away from me.

8. I don’t know all the details of the Henry Louis Gates case, and insert consequences drawn from #7 here.

9. Calvinball, from Calvin and Hobbes

10. All the things I’d like to write that “later when I have time”, which…never? comes.

Residents of the Uncanny Valley

July 29, 2009

My dear friend PS (who you may remember from the Zoloft egg conversation) introduced me to the idea of the Uncanny Valley. Yes, Uncanny in this context is meant to imply all the Freudian. In his own words, the Uncanny Valley is populated by, “things that are a certain distance away from us that are sort of creepy and yet we’re comfortable with them because they remind us of something…a nostalgia, perhaps…like cabbage patch dolls=our childhood. They remind us of ourselves, of humans, but a little too much to be comfortable so they create a sort of revulsion.”

He contradicted himself, I see, but I hope it makes some sense, nonetheless. We’re comfortable with them yet they create a sort of revulsion, a kind that might make us a little nauseated but we aren’t totally turned off. Like the visual/psychological equivalent of whole milk, for many.

Things that Exist in the Uncanny Valley

Amanda Bynes

Puppets that are human-like (the cast of the now-defunct Avenue Q, par example)

PS: Toy Story — approaching uncanny

Baby chimps in diapers

Artistic renderings of babies, and even just infants themselves, seem to fall quickly into the Uncanny Valley. Have you ever seen that infomercial for the program Your Baby Can Read? Absolutely the most uncanny thing I’ve ever seen. One year olds READING! Terrifying.

www.yourbabycanread.com

Boy bands

Dolls that come to life (Twilight Zone’s Talking Tina, Chuckie)

Stephen Hawking, and other computers that read
The guy next to me in this computer lab just audibly farted…

The Ten Best Gifts I’ve Ever Received, in Order of Greatness

July 18, 2009

1. My friend G wrote me a six-movement piece for steel string guitar. He writes:

“Like yourself, they are very dense works in a very small package. As usual, it’s avant-garde music so you probably wont’ be whistling the tunes in the shower, but I hope you enjoy!”

2. Another friend gave me his sister’s old Caboodle, which is a great carry on bag when you fly.

3. Trapped in the Closet: The Big Package (Chapters 1-24)

4. Midget porn, given to me by my boss

5. A first edition of Lolita, along with a really nice letter

6. Trips (Israel, Brazil), by my parents

7. A mini-knife on a necklace

8. Fresh Direct

9. Netflix

10. A first edition of The Little Prince

(One person is responsible for three of these, and after writing this, I think I may send him a love letter…)

Cheap Thrills for Masochists

July 9, 2009

Noise music (try Nuits by Iannis Xenakis)

Ulysses

cold showers

Watching Freddie Highmore (Finding Neverland) well up and weep

Watching gymnastics*

Hanging out at one of the following places: tattoo parlors (preferably ones in which the layout is rather open, late at night), quickie wedding chapels (you’d kind of have to be in Vegas for this, I guess), or the kitchen of a really cheap Chinese restaurant

The television show I Shouldn’t Be Alive

Tweezing

Google-Imaging “Regurgitation”, although there are a lot of random words that would work for this one

The Songs That Best Sum Up My Life

June 26, 2009

Because “theme song”s sounds lame.

“You Don’t Know How it Feels to Be Me” by Tom Petty and the Heartbreakers

“Don’t Be Scared” by A.R.E. Weapons

“Dig a Pony” by the Beatles

“This Cloud” by Bush (nod to my moody teenage years)

“Hospital Beds” by Cold War Kids

“Closer” by Nine Inch Nails (Ha!)

“I Want to Live in a Wigwam” by Cat Stevens

“Dedicated Follower of Fashion” by the Kinks

“I Want to Know What Love Is” by Foreigner (is she joking?  I can’t tell…if not, that’s pretty sad…wait, seriously?)

“What Is Life” by George Harrison

And the grand, choreographed dance finale to my movie-life:

“Papa Was a Rolling Stone” by the Temptations

Overrated Things

June 11, 2009

San Francisco

Community Service

Skiing

Jobs

Emotions

Rationality/Intelligence

Sample Sales

Encores/standing ovations

Cocaine

One night stands

Purell

Angelina Jolie

Postal Service (the band, not the actual U.S. Postal Service)

Compliments

Thanksgiving