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RIP Adrienne Rich

March 29, 2012

Famed poet Adrienne Rich died Tuesday.  I wanted to post “Valediction Forbidding Mourning” (seemed apropos) but it had been removed from all the usual sites due to complaints from the copyright holder.  Fair ’nuff.

Song

You’re wondering if I’m lonely:

OK then, yes, I’m lonely

as a plane rides lonely and level

on its radio beam, aiming

across the Rockies

for the blue-strung aisles

of an airfield on the ocean.

You want to ask, am I lonely?

Well, of course, lonely

as a woman driving across country

day after day, leaving behind

mile after mile

little towns she might have stopped

and lived and died in, lonely

If I’m lonely

it must be the loneliness

of waking first, of breathing

dawns’ first cold breath on the city

of being the one awake

in a house wrapped in sleep

If I’m lonely

it’s with the rowboat ice-fast on the shore

in the last red light of the year

that knows what it is, that knows it’s neither

ice nor mud nor winter light

but wood, with a gift for burning

Catalog Poetry

March 16, 2012

We received at my office the gorgeous catalog for a publishing company called Sceptre, which is celebrating its 25th anniversary.  Numerous writers wrote little pieces about the number 25.  Below is my favorite:

25 Collective nouns for un/common things.

a reversal of mirrors

a slump of slippers

a forest of rubber gloves

a telescope of toilet rolls

a voodoo of pincushions

a dream of pillowcases

an expression of pumpkins

a bouquet of odd socks

a niggle of crosswords

a crumple of carrier bags

a regime of paperclips

an armament of cutlery

a cloud of used tissues

a duel of toothbrushes

a migration of pens

a convalescence of dressing gowns

a fable of apples

a sob of raindrops

a passage of newspapers

an alarm of clocks

a whirlpool of wooden spoons

a clacker of stilettos

a thud of potatoes

an eviction of bin liners

–– Jess Richards

 

My Attempt

a prayer of annotations

a bottle of triplets

a library of oysters

a backlog of icicles

a continent of mistakes

a garden of scarves

a page of orgasms

a whisper of paintings

a zoo of hearts

a video of persimmons

a meal of schoolchildren

a dance of questions

an orb of horses

a blanket of thimbles

a concert of nail files

a palace of statistics

a harvest of fireworks

an exercise of massacres

an avalanche of emeralds

a funeral of attics

a contest of spirals

an umbrella of kittens

a tea bag of wood chips

a protest of pinkies

a blitzkrieg of hedges

Sweet Dreams, Babydolls

February 10, 2012

 

If you click on this image and wait a second, you’ll get  a surprise.

Shhhhhhh

February 3, 2012

Is Mercury in retrograde?

I feel strange, and unproductive.  Not sad, exactly, but anxious about letting go.  My day is over, though –– no hope for finishing one last manuscript tonight –– so I’m attempting to sooth myself to sleep by thinking of things simple and beautiful to me right now: Bemelman’s Bar, pajama t-shirts, Shlomo Carlebach whistling, the ocean (the Surf Hotel on Block Island!), blissfully long airplane rides, the sound of typing, Vladimir Nabokov, e.g.:

“Her painted eyelids were closed.  A tear of no particular meaning gemmed in the hard top of her cheek.  Nobody could tell what went on in that little head.  Waves of desire rippled there, a recent lover fell back into a swoon, hygienic doubts were raised and dismissed, contempt for everyone but herself advertised with a flush of warmth its constant presence, here it is, cried what’s her name squatting quickly.  My darling, dushka moya…”

The smell of straight vanilla extract, listening to children speak French, bouquets of hydrangeas, worry dolls, hot whiskey drinks, and Shel Silverstein’s picture of love.

It was love at first sight for Belinda and Benjamin Box.

Remind me to tell you tomorrow what my new dream job is.

Goodnight…

Our House

January 24, 2012

His and hers

Would you move here with me, my sweet?  You can have the white house –– I’m small, and not greedy –– but whenever you like you can walk across the bridge to my blue house.  I’ll make you eggs and tea when you come visit; I’ll hug you and tell you over and over again that you are magnificent.  I’ll read you stories, and let you nap as long as you like.  If you let me, I’ll come visit you, too, and bring my cat and a picnic.  Things will be lovely at our house.

Good Thing I Don’t Worry About Burning Bridges

January 18, 2012

I had a dream the other night that the below stunner, Jane Friedman, who is well known in the publishing world, was trying to eat me.

And I woke up screaming and covered in sweat.

Deserted Islands

January 13, 2012

My beloved responded to my not-so-subtle hints about wanting the beautiful book Atlas of Remote Islands by Judith Schalansky and bought it for me for Christmas.  At the end of today, one in a string of many during which I’ve acutely felt the world impeding on my inner life, I am blissfully alone with this text, reading about these far-flung, windy places and imagining what it is to be one of 384 people who live on an island in the middle of a vast ocean.  It is comforting for me to think of things so small and solitary.  Unlike Ms. Schalansky, though, who gives her book the subtitle Fifty Islands I Have Never Set Foot On and Never Will, I am not willing to rule out the possibility of traveling to these desolate places, if only just to here waves breaking on dead silence.  What better soundtrack to a slumber?

ST. KILDA ISLAND

Her little illustrations are so charming.

St. Kilda –– you don’t exist.  Your name is just a faint cry made by the birds that make their home on the high cliffs at the furthest edge of the United Kingdom, beyond the outermost of the Outer Hebrides.  Only when a north-east wind prevails can the voyage even be attempted.

There are sixteen cottages, three houses and one church  in the only village on St. Kilda.  The island’s future is written in its graveyard.  Its children are all born in good health, but most stop feeding during their fourth, fifth or sixth night.  On the seventh day, their palates tighten and their throats constrict, so it becomes impossible to get them to swallow anything.  Their muscles twitch and their jaws hang loose.  Their eyes grow staring and they yawn a great deal; their open mouths stretch in mocking grimaces.  Between the seventh and the ninth day, two-thirds of the newborn babies die, boys outnumbering girls.  Some die sooner, some later: one dies on the fourth day, another not till the twenty-first.

Some say it is the diet: the fatty meat of the fulmars and their eggs smelling of musk that make the skin silky smooth but the mothers’ milk bitter.  Or that it is a result of inbreeding.  Yet others say that the babies are suffocated by the smoke from the peat fires in the middle of the rooms, or that it is the zinc in the roofs or the pale pink oil that burns in the lamps.  The islanders whisper that it is the will of the Almighty.  But these are the words of pious men.  The women who endure so many pregnancies and bear so few children who survive the eight-day sickness remain silent.

On 22 June 1876, one woman stands on the deck of a ship that is bringing her home.  Like all the women of St. Kilda, she has soft skin, red cheeks, exceptionally clear eyes and teeth like young ivory.  She has just given birth to a child, but not at home.  The wind is blowing from the north-east.  Long before she can be seen from the shore, she lifts her newborn high in the air.*

Village Bay

A difficult climb.

*The writing in this book is so eerie, oftentimes the stories seem hard to believe, so if I were you, I wouldn’t take this as straight history until yours truly fact checks it and gets back to you.  Word to the wise…

Nook-Sick

November 28, 2011

This is my bed.

Bonjour, Tristesse

November 21, 2011

My last day in Paris: disappointing.  Closed establishments, bad sketches, aching feet, trite sentiments.  I should have gone to the movies like I wanted to instead of fearing that it wasn’t the “right” activity.  I don’t want to depart –– period the end.  I could probably hear the bells of Notre Dame from my room every day for the rest of my life and not get sick of them.  Stuck at this event where I don’t really want to be –– I wish I was out at dinner already, eating a salade chevre chaud.  I will return home Great-American-Novel-less.  Le tear.  I want this day to be over, finally, so I can lock myself in the book store and find my Never Ending Story or Wizard of Oz so I can read it and enter an alternate universe in which I save the Child-Like Empress (or lead the motley crew toward the Emerald Palace, whatevs) and become queen of a tiny, magical world that I never, ever have to leave.

See you on the other side.

Technological Angst

November 19, 2011

IS: i had a terrible melancholia-watching experience due to TECHNOLOGICAL DIFFICULTIES

I no longer believe in progress as a result.

ID: I really feel like I should post an update on my blog but it’s already 2:30 in the morning… ugh, being a carefree Parisienne is exhausting!

IS: Save the blogging for yo’ Americana alter-ego!

ID: RIP Demi and Ashton’s marriage.