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Do They Offer Scholarships?

October 13, 2009

I kind of have a thing for kitschy psych schools of the seventies…kitschy is so not the right word here but humor me.

The Original!

The Original!

“A thirty-year-old man, whom I shall call Gary Hillard, was relating with great feeling how his parents had always criticized him, had never loved him, and had generally messed up his life. I urged him to call out for them; he demurred. He “knew” that they didn’t love him, so what was the point? I asked him to indulge my whim. Halfheartedly, he started calling for Mommy and Daddy. Soon I noticed he was breathing faster and deeper. His calling turned into an involuntary act that led to writhing, near-convulsions, and finally to a scream.

“Both of us were shocked. What I had believed was an accident, an idiosyncratic reaction of one patient, had just been repeated in almost identical fashion.

“Afterward, when he quieted down, Gary was flooded with insights. He told me that his whole life seemed to have suddenly fallen into place. This ordinarily unsophisticated man began transforming himself in front of my eyes into what was virtually another human being. He became alert; his sensorium opened up; he seemed to understand himself.

“Because of the similarities of the two reactions, I began listening even more carefully to the tapes I had made of Danny’s and Gary’s sessions. I tried to analyze what common factors or techniques produced the reactions. Slowly some meaning began to emerge. Over the next months I tried various modifications and approaches in asking the patient to call for his parents. Each time there occurred the same dramatic results.

“I have come to regard that scream as the product of central and universal pains which reside in all neurotics. I call them Primal Pains because they are the original, early hurts upon which all later neurosis is built. It is my contention that these pains exist in every neurotic each minute of his later life, irrespective of the form of his neurosis. These pains often are not consciously felt because they are diffused throughout the entire system where they affect body organs, muscles, the blood and lymph system and, finally, the distorted way we behave.

“Primal Therapy is aimed at eradicating these pains. It is revolutionary because it involves overthrowing the neurotic system by a forceful upheaval. Nothing short of that will eliminate neurosis, in my opinion.

“Primal Theory is an outgrowth of my observations about why specific changes take place. Theory, I must emphasize, did not precede clinical experience. When I watched Danny and Gary writhing on the floor in the throes of Primal Pain, I had no idea what to call it. The theory has been expanded and deepened by the continuing reports of one patient after another who has been cured of neurosis. This book is an invitation to explore the revolution they began.”

– from The Primal Scream by Dr. Arthur Janov, 1970

http://www.primaltherapy.com

An Epiphany

October 7, 2009

A Really Great Missed Connection

October 3, 2009

For Marguerite Matisse.

“I still think you are the most beautiful woman in the world, past or present. I’ve never considered us a missed connection, but I am turning 30 next week and who knows what muse will lie ahead for me in the next decade. You were all about the 20s for me…will you stick with? or become something else?”

Marguerite

Marguerite

http://newyork.craigslist.org/mnh/mis/1403838357.html

Another Vote

October 2, 2009

Best James Ellroy one-liner of the night:

A) I was born to sit in dark rooms and think about heavy shit.

B) I got my performance skills in junior high giving oral books reports on books that didn’t exist.

C) I am to the pulpit born.

Who Am I, to You?

October 1, 2009

“Rarely do we achieve such a completeness in the eyes of others…generally one’s sins get diluted slightly by some mitigating act.  Perhaps there is someone to whom I have been without exception kind and selfless, though this person is not coming as quickly to mind.  Don’t we generally stumble through life as ambiguous to others as we are to ourselves?  Always hoping that they will assemble a portrait that in some way accords with out idealized (or at least compassionately understood) self.  Multiple eyes gaze upon you — and in a lifetime of scrutiny from different angles, you are held up and turned in the light like a semiprecious stone, or perhaps a piece of fool’s gold, and over the years if not by one set of eyes but by all together your flaws are seen and your worth assayed.  And is that it?  Are we the sum of people’s conceptions of us?”

~Richard Todd, The Thing Itself

In Case You’re in NYC…

September 30, 2009

Parrot Behavior and Training Workshop

October 10th and 11th at Uptown birds

Between 85th and 86th on Amsterdam Avenue

Call 212.877.2473

If I Had a Twitter Right Now…

September 19, 2009

it would say, “ID is thinking it’s a shame she doesn’t have enough money to buy really expensive lingerie.”

…Had A Twitter, or just Had Twitter?

A Very Funny Exchange

September 18, 2009

(The subject, BTW, is pacifism.)

DHG:

just read in this morning’s new york times that the state of ohio spent 2 hours trying to kill a man yesterday, and they could not find a vein they could get the needle into, and now they are RE-SCHEDULING killing him next week. my jaw dropped. that there is a death penalty here is barbaric in my view –we are among the few “civilized” nations that have it, as you probably know; our neighbors like Mexico are appalled–but to strap a man down and try to kill him for HOURS and then decide you’re going to do it to him again next week is torture of the most rarified kind. far worse than putting someone on the rack and snapping his tendons and connective tissue. in other words, makes medieval methods look like child’s play. you’d think that if the state failed to kill someone right–or at all–that they then forego the right to kill him. but they’re using a 1946 ruling to justify it–apparently it’s not unconstitutional. yeah well, neither was slavery.

and to answer ID’s about muktananda’s philosophy, yeah, non-violence entirely.
LH:

See, all I thought was Jesus, how lame can Ohio be that we can’t even get a vein? Is this because of the budget problem??

Back At The End

September 15, 2009

Some day, later on in my life, I will come back to Montauk in September, alone, or with someone/people I love.  I will eat sushi at West Lake Clam and Chowder House and watch the fishermen gut their catch on the wooden table next to me.  I will wear my blue Montauk dress.  I will swim in the ocean late at night, when the sharks come close to shore.   I will pay the twenty dollars to swim in the salt pools at Guerney’s Inn.  I will read and I will let it be quiet.  Silence is a gift.  I will never again take it for granted.

Reasons I am happy to be here:

cable television

the ocean

Reasons I am not:

The fat, semiretarded cat I found licking itself on my bed last night when I checked in

bugs

my boss living next door

No internet in my room

A Dream, Again

September 11, 2009

The day is rainy…I’m off work, and feeling languid, and lonely.

Last night/this morning:

I wore tights with a black seam up the back

The movie Coco Before Chanel

At least three missed flights, and a bridge in Chicago